My Dear Friends,
The cusp of a New Year, the waning of the old. A year that has been a revolution. An evolution. A revelation. A year where the status quo has been turned on its head, its pockets emptied.
When I was 30 years old, my life turned upside down. Out of nowhere came excruciating stabbing pains in my face. Any movement – talking, eating, walking, turning over in bed – would trigger burning knives slashing through my right cheek. The diagnosis was Trigeminal Neuralgia, or Tic Doloreux: the kind of pain that won’t kill you, but make you wish you were dead. Nothing like breath-taking pain to bring your sense of self-determination to a grinding halt.
While the relationship with my trigeminal nerves has been an on-going story, it continues to open my pathway to ever more freedom. Sometimes it takes a revolution to force us out of what has become stagnant. And while Covid-19 remains a very present tune, we always have the choice of how we dance to the music.
Freedom doesn’t lie in the outer world, but is an inner experience. The only thing that can truly trap us, are the thoughts we think and the beliefs we form from our perception of reality.
What has this past year shown us about our perception of reality? That life is dangerous and even the air we breathe poses a threat? That we are helplessly small? That only governments and institutions are responsible for our well-being? Those could be assumptions taken.
But out of tragedy and hardship can come more positive determination. When we look within ourselves for what this experience is calling forward, it can be the opposite of feeling small and helpless. Revolutions create vacuums of potential, open to whatever creative influences we choose to bring.
So as we pause on the cusp of a new year, consider that within yourself new seedlings are peeking through. That the changes occurring are willing to be in your favor. That no outer regulations can curtail the enjoyment available to you. Trust yourself and trust your life. More good stuff is coming.
She who is centered in the Tao
Can go where she wishes without danger.
She perceives the universal harmony
Even in the midst of great pain
Because she has found peace in her heart.
(Tao te Ching Chapter 35
Stephen Mitchell translation)
For those who are looking for some weekly support in this oh-so-interesting journey of life, I am starting a zoom lunchtime coaching/meditation group every Wednesday, beginning January 13th from 12 – 1 pm. Call 604-671-7863 or email firstname.lastname@example.org for details.
May your seeds of 2020 fruit deliciously in the new year ahead!